There’s no feeling like being loved. I’m going to enjoy it while I can.
“ Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. ”
Bob Marley (via quote-book)
It’s here. I’ve outdone myself this time. Good love is on the way and I’m on my way out. But that’s okay because I want to have a little faith that all this insane good will outweigh the eventual bad.
What’s a word to combine happy and scared? Scappy?
This is going to be the longest craziest weekend away ever. I’m happy to get away and travel and explore but I’m dying to know what I’m coming back to.
Good love is on the way?
Been pretty emotional the last few days about coming to terms with the fact that in time I will have to say good bye to a place I am not ready to leave, and nor do I want to. As much as I’ve traveled, come and gone, I’ve never felt the intense need to stay.
I’ve been living a pretty nice life here in Egypt. I have everything that I could ask for in terms of excitement, a great group of people, explorations, being around music, learning languages and general learning, inspiration… I’ve been riding a pretty nice wave. It all came to a crashing halt when I realized I had to start making decisions about this winter and next spring. Those things that has seemed far in the future were rapidly approaching and I could feel them tightening in on me.
I guess what I did today was lounge and try to give myself some TLC, some midol, some good tv episodes, and some time to think. Every day it has not gotten easier, as my plans have become complicated, my options have closed and reopened. It’s been really hard to come to terms with decisions and then have them change all over again. I want to do it all and nothing at the same time. I want to seek out opportunities but take time to make the ones I’ve found here last. I’m comfortable and part of me doesn’t want to take a risk right now. It makes me sick a little because I’ve always been one of those people to scoff at those who passed up opportunities to stay with comfort. But I guess that at the end of the day we all have whatever we chose. Those who chose their comforts had spent valuable time with the people that mattered. Those that sought adventure had those experiences too.
The fact is I’m not ready to leave. I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready, if a little more time will matter or if it will just postpone the inevitable painful good byes. I talked to Rebecca today, who is just the right person to talk to when it comes to these things because she has gone through a lot of them. She told me the truth - it SUCKS leaving when you in your heart don’t want to. She said take lots of photos, emails, and not to miss opportunities or leave any questions unanswered, but other than that there really is no way to prepare. And to know that if you truly like it or love or the people you will find your way back.
All I know is one thing, I’m not ready to leave. I don’t know if that will change. We’ll have to see. I guess above all I have to say I am lucky to be somewhere where I feel I belong and to have people around me who can make me feel like I have support no matter where I go.
Thoughtfully,
Danielle
“ I’ve had enough sex for the both of us so I think we’re good. ;) ”
Frances hahahahaha
I’m coming up on the time where I have to decide to stay in Egypt or move on. I’m at a loss of what to do. Part of my wants to stay but part of me knows that staying may be investing in things that are likely to end regardless. I’m tugged a little. I keep thinking back to this moment from an old show I used to watch…
What are the chances this would happen? It would make things a lot easier.
“ [3:48:55 PM] Caitlin O’Neill: you’re determined and strong and amazing. and you could have picked places to go that would have been a 24/7 party but you’re challenging yourself. it will so be worth it, maybe not immediately. ”
About me
I'm Dani. I'm a student that lives in Washington, DC but is ready to see the world. I love music and I wish I knew how to play the guitar. I grew up in the 90s, the best years we never knew we had.
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